One thing I have learned from this fight. I never ... never, have to look far to see someone who has it just as bad, and most times worse than myself. I have faced death ... I know its face is different everytime I have to stare into it. I have made peace with those I wanted to make peace with.
Bill .... let those demons go .... my friend, it is the living that suffer, not the dead. I wouldn't change places with you or my wife for 50 more years of life. I am greatful that I don't have to watch her go through what I am going through, what your daughter is going through, your brother. I carry on as I have always done, or as best I can. It hides my pain and it occupies my mind. I have to be strong for those that love me, so they don't put their minds through that torture. I believe that you have went through more than I will go through ...even to die. To quote Josey Wales ; dying ain't hard for men like us .... living is the hard part. My family will go through the same if I show any weakness. I can promise you sir, I will not quit .... it will have to kill me.
Remember, control your mind .... your ass will follow.